Monday, August 31, 2009

Reflect, Regroup and Recharge

I recently ran away. I hadn't ran away in quite some time but I was in desperate need of a change in my scenery, change in the way I think and the way I go about my day. Things were bubbling up and I was about to blow so I took my cousin up on her offer to ride down to Florida to see the family.

I had not seen some of my family in years. My niece was a tiny baby the last time I saw her so I threw my stuff into an overnight bag, drove the furbaby to the kennel and off we went.

I did not realize how worn out I was until we got there and uncorked a good bottle of wine and started to laugh with my cousins, my aunties and my mother. Our impromptu Salsa class was hilarious. Nothing like my auntie and mother trying to salsa when they have been puffing on cancer sticks all day! I wore them out without breathing hard ;-)

My brother-in-law always treats me to home cooked meals and this time I was delighted to accompany them to my niece's first trip to the beach. I am so in love with this little girl. She was not pleased with the sand that was hard to walk in or the crashing of the waves but she loved the sights and sounds. This was my first time in over a decade visiting the beach that was such a big part of my childhood. We went to the soft side where the waves were small and I stuck my feet in the water and let the tide wash my troubles away.

I am not sure how long I stood there watching the waves bury my feet in the sand and laughing at my niece who was having no parts of the cool water but I enjoyed every minute. My spirit was soothed with each crashing wave. It was a wonderful day, overcast with a cool wind.

I even saw my younger siblings who are now taller than I am. A shame it has been four years since we last set eyes on each other. When my little (and I use the term relatively) brother called me ma'am my heart sank. Ma'am, really? I almost threw my shoe at him :-) But I now have my little (again, used relatively) sister's email so hopefully we can keep in touch better.

As we drove back home Sunday afternoon my spirit was lighter and I realized I had just been fed a big helping of what I was missing for a long time. All is right with the world...

Peace & Blessings...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Clarity and Colorgenics

I have been in a funk lately. A good old-fashioned don't-push-me-'cause-I-might-revert-to-my-ghetto-roots-and-cut-you funk. My job has given me more work than 2 1/2 people can manage in a 40 hour work week to utilize my skill set during our budget cuts. At the same time giving me more events to plan and things to coordinate.

My person of interest has shown me he may not be worthy of half the attention I am giving him. The few others who have captured my attention are either dying of a terminal disease, much older than I would date or already have women in their lives. Let me tell you dear Blog family, KayC does not play the other woman. Woooo-saaaahhhhhh!

After having an extremely frustrating work week (I know it's only Thursday) and informing one of the men in my life that I am done trying to persuade people to spend time with me, you either want to or you don't I danced myself happy on the Salsa floor and tried my best to sweat out my natural curls. Luckily I found great dance partners and danced myself silly for a few hours. LOVE this photo. We danced for 5 straight songs until we both said "No Mas!" He also taught me how to do triple turns *doing my happy dance.

I ran across this post on Colorgenics via Thoughts of an ADHD Drama Queen and decided to try it for myself. Amazing how accurate it is and I think it pretty much sums it up. What do you think?

Name: KayC, The Quiet Storm
Date: 8/20/2009

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a 'kick-up-the backside') and then you'll be raring to go.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding - especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

I am going to enjoy some live jazz tonight in another effort to work hard AND play hard. Not sure where this current journey is taking me, but Lord knows it is humbling. You can try Colorgenics for yourself here.

Until I gain some type of clarity at this point of my life journey...

Peace & Blessings...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

At This Moment

At this moment in time
All I know is that I need you with me
I yearn for you with everything that I am
Everything I was and everything I will be

At this moment in time
Right now, right here
My mind digs deeper with the memories of you
And daydreams of our bodies being entangled
where one mind, body, soul give way to two

At this moment in time
Memories just simply won’t due
I want to submerge myself and swim in each second that passes with you
Where legs, arms and minds weave together and eight hours seem like two

At this moment in time
I want you to run your fingers through my hair
and the sensation of your fingers on my scalp
makes me loose my train of thought...
What was I saying?

At this moment in time
Your beautiful face is forever burned into my brain
Your touch is stored in my psyche
Your kiss is etched on my skin
Your hug keeps me long after you let go

At this moment in time
I know that I need/like/love/want/desire you
At this moment in time
I realize you are not a reason nor a season
At this moment in time
I simply want you to be mine.

Copyright 2009 - KayC, The Quiet Storm

Peace & Blessings...

Friday, August 7, 2009

Honest Scrap Award

My blog sistergirl Ms.KnowItAll bestowed this honor upon me. I LOVE gifts and surprises so I am honored to fulfill my obligation.

Here are the rules...

1) Brag about it...
Brag? Who, me? *Breakin' it down to the Jacksons - Can you feel it? Can you feel it? CAN YOU FEEL IT!*

(2) Choose seven blogs I find brilliant and link to them, and..
Hmmm....I think the people who would participate have already been tagged. Besides if you follow The Storm or read it regularly you know I don't do chain letters. Good or bad.

(3) List 10 honest things about myself...

- I like finding out people's stories. Why they think the way they do. What life events brought them to this place in this time.

- I have never dated outside my race. I'm not opposed to it, just never happened. I'm sure this will change soon...

- Having a mundane desk job where I do the same thing every day is about as fun for me as having a molar pulled.

- I was the kid who got teased growing up, because of this I do not believe in picking on people, even if it is in good fun.

- I love non-mainstream music. Jazz, local artists and great live bands.

- The best date I ever had involved a man turning his bar into a homemade movie theater for just the two of us.

- The second best date I ever had was a long impromtu walk in the park with great conversation.

- I get bored with my job around year 3, my current job is starting to bore's year 4!

- I've never had a birthday party as an adult. That will change this year, I'm throwing myself a birthday bash. I have MUCH to celebrate!

- The only 'girlie' obessession I have is shoes. I LOVE cute shoes. Bring on the stilettos, sneakers and flats!

Peace & Blessings...