what do you need? - Sharon
It caught me off guard but after thinking about it, she was right. If I know who I am and what I want I should have no problems figuring out what I need, right? Wrong!
I immediately thought about needs vs. wants and made my initial list.
- a roof over my head.
- food in my pantry.
- to pay my bills.
- to fix that leak under my sink before the cabinets mold
- to fix my creaky stairs
- a better paying job
I need...none of those things.
Really, with the exception of the first two I do not NEED to have those things, but would like to have them.
I need to be loved, to be touched/held/entangled with a person who enjoys doing so. I need to wake up every day feeling like my life has a purpose and not wander around aimlessly in a dull routine that feeds my anger and frustration.
I need to see the wagging tail of my furbaby and the antics he comes up with while throwing his unstuffed toys around the house.
I need to laugh at least daily because it makes me feel good.
I need to know that beyond all else, God has a plan for me and has my back when NO ONE seems to understand or care.
I need to know there is something more to this thing we call "life" and the struggle that goes with it.
"What do you NEED?"
Who knew that question would be the most difficult to answer...
Peace & Blessings...