Sunday, November 21, 2010

My Birthday Reflections 2010

This year has been...great, good and horrible all in one neat little package. I have learned that love is not always what you expect and that tingling in the pit of your stomach is not love. I have learned that family will always be there for you even when you turn your back on them. I have learned that REAL friends pick you up when you fall, stand behind you to push you when you stop walking and encourage you along the way. I have learned that REAL friends cheer you on but also tell you when you're wrong.

This year, as I look back and reflect on the past 365 days, as I look back on the party I threw last year and the people who surrounded me to celebrate. I am thrilled that 99% of those people are still in my life. They are still cheering with me, performing with me and want the best for me. I have added new people to the circle and added new activities to my favorite things to do.

I now know to listen to my gut, that little voice that speaks to you louder than anyone else. I know to let go when that voice tells me to, I know to be still and be patient when I don't know what else to do. I know to follow that gut instinct when people try to convince me they know what's better for me than I do. And yes, I know who I am, know what I want and I will not compromise that.

I have learned so much this year. I am coming to terms with the fact that I may never be someone's mother but I plan to be one hell of an Aunt. I am coming to terms that I will travel and see the world even if it is with my cousin instead of a male partner. I am coming to terms with the fact I love jeans and sneakers more than I like dresses and heels. And I LOVE big curly hair more than I like straight, flat and sleek looks.

I am coming to to terms with the woman I am, the woman I was and the woman I am destined to be...

Yes, there was a wicked birthday party. Photos will be posted soon (well, the ones that are safe to post ;)

Until Next Time,
Peace & Blessings...


  1. Great post! Your post caused me to reflect on myself! I totally agree with your gut feeling comments! So many times I've known what to do, but listened to someone else! If I could take those times back! My circle is small and my friends have changed, but I definitely know who to call during those unnerving times or times when I want to vent! I hope you had a wonderful birthday:) I will not be a biologoical mom, but I am a good step-mom, a great aunt and an awesome godmother:) There are many kids on this Earth already for us to see about:) Let me know when you perform again, I'd love to check you out!

  2. Get out of my head Lady! Your "coming to terms" sound just like mine! I'm working on an end of the year post that will include my terms...

    Happy B'earthday! I know you're still riding high from celebrating so I'm still wishing. I am glad you celebrated life! It's beautiful to give yourself that gift.