My Birthday Reflections 2010

This year has been...great, good and horrible all in one neat little package. I have learned that love is not always what you expect and that tingling in the pit of your stomach is not love. I have learned that family will always be there for you even when you turn your back on them. I have learned that REAL friends pick you up when you fall, stand behind you to push you when you stop walking and encourage you along the way. I have learned that REAL friends cheer you on but also tell you when you're wrong.

This year, as I look back and reflect on the past 365 days, as I look back on the party I threw last year and the people who surrounded me to celebrate. I am thrilled that 99% of those people are still in my life. They are still cheering with me, performing with me and want the best for me. I have added new people to the circle and added new activities to my favorite things to do.

I now know to listen to my gut, that little voice that speaks to you louder than anyone else. I know to let go when that voice tells me to, I know to be still and be patient when I don't know what else to do. I know to follow that gut instinct when people try to convince me they know what's better for me than I do. And yes, I know who I am, know what I want and I will not compromise that.

I have learned so much this year. I am coming to terms with the fact that I may never be someone's mother but I plan to be one hell of an Aunt. I am coming to terms that I will travel and see the world even if it is with my cousin instead of a male partner. I am coming to terms with the fact I love jeans and sneakers more than I like dresses and heels. And I LOVE big curly hair more than I like straight, flat and sleek looks.

I am coming to to terms with the woman I am, the woman I was and the woman I am destined to be...

Yes, there was a wicked birthday party. Photos will be posted soon (well, the ones that are safe to post ;)

Until Next Time,
Peace & Blessings...