My Birthday Reflections 2009

I try to sit back on every birthday and reflect on the year. Each year is monumental to me but this year I celebrate my birthday doing things I never thought I would do.

I start my birthday as a performer and entertainer. A desire I never thought I would actually get a chance to fulfill and here I am on the other side of 30 on stage and enjoying every minute with people I like to be around.

This year I am also celebrating by throwing myself a birthday party. This party is a first for me, so I am nervous and excited at once. But the plan is to enjoy each moment as it comes and dance my ass off. I have a hot new dress, new boots and new ballroom shoes to get my Salsa on!!! I plan to be dragged off the dance floor kicking and screaming ;-) After a 2 hour show and dancing at the party I'm not sure I'll be able to walk for a few days but I plan to have fun wearing out my legs.

This year I have found roots that help me keep my sanity in a world where you are destined to go insane. I have found different levels of love with friends and fam that make me appreciate who I am and the struggles that it took to get me there. I am finally comfortable in my own skin and I am told that it shows when I walk into a room.

This year I have built a solid foundation. This year I have worked on finding ME and I can finally see who she is, what she wants and what she needs. This year I have reclaimed myself, the woman I am and the woman I am destined to become. It has not been easy and it has not been without dissapointment, heartache, headache, sadness, loneliness and the occassional tears.

Now that I have my foundation and I have found myself, maybe next year true love will find me? Even if it doesn't....it has been one hell of a ride!!!

I have chosen to not sit it out and let the world pass me by. My choice is to participate. Hopefully, I will always choose to dance...





Peace & Blessings...